Doubting ourselves is very easy
Making ourselves not feel this way is not
People that haven’t dealt with these issues
they think it’s easy
“just stop”
if only it were so easy

What I have leaned is there is a difference
between what I “feel”
and what “is”

It doesn’t make those feelings
any less painful
But it does help me to deal with it
to step outside of myself
and know

I may “feel”
useless, disgusting, ugly, fat, skinny, dumb
(my God the list can go on and on)
Even if I “feel” those things
I understand I am not
there is a difference

It doesn’t make the pain any less real
but it does help me to keep going
because there is a difference

-July, 2013