04 Sunday Aug 2019
Posted in Poetry
Goodbye’s whispered
in hushed voices
Eyes averted
From fear or sorrow
I’m just not sure
Maybe it doesn’t matter
Maybe it never did
All I know is
The empty grows
Every fucking day
Welcome
to the fade
28 Sunday Jul 2019
I used to say
My memories
Were like razor blades
Inside my veins
They hurt
To rip them out
But they hurt more
To leave them in
But what happens
When the words
To pull them out
No longer heal
What happens
When every mask
Becomes too heavy
To even wear
These things inside
They often hurt
The boxes I keep them in
Are too many to count
So tell me
Someone please
What happens
When I’ve nothing left
09 Saturday Dec 2017
Posted in Poetry, Uncategorized
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Those years ago
I have no idea
How I opened up
And let her in
No idea how
I let her hurt me
the way she did
But those holes
In my walls
In my armor
I found them
And sealed them closed
I won’t hurt again
Not like that anyway
Epilogue
The trick is on her though
I kept a piece of her
Trapped inside of me
No matter how far she goes
I’ll have a fragment
Of a love that…
that shouldn’t have been
but was
maybe
only for a moment
maybe
lasting a lifetime
and into the next
07 Thursday Dec 2017
Posted in Poetry, Uncategorized
I wrote those
darkest memories
In that tattered old journal
Ink slipped the stories
That only got told
In blood and nightmares
I let slip
The deepest of demons
And when
the words were done
I took that
tattered old journal
And set it to flames
Those darkest of memories
now ash and cinder
Still burning inside
But for a moment at least
a little cooler
And the nightmares
a little dimmer
26 Sunday Feb 2017
Posted in Poetry
29 Tuesday Nov 2016
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Winter comes
And midnight falls
We weren’t ready
But it seems
The seasons
Have changed
This cycle
Has somehow ended
So close your eyes
Sweet mother
And rest in peace
16 Wednesday Nov 2016
You’re stronger than you think
And I know you’ll survive
Even the things
You think that you can’t
But I have to pull away
Because the one thing
That you cannot survive
Is me because of who I am
It isn’t that I doubt your love
Or that there’s any question
About the intensity of mine
Love was never our wall
We were each other’s poison
As much as we ever were the cure
But the scales were never balanced
Always hurting more than healing
Don’t forgive me
Even though you’ll say
There’s nothing to be forgiven
No… don’t forgive me
Survive me
22 Saturday Oct 2016
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This…
What the fuck is any of this?
An exerpt from a larger book
We’re but a chapter
Maybe two
We never read the beginning
We’ll never know the ending
Are the final pages even written
Does it get put down
Forgotten in a cluttered den
The point of the story
Never really known
18 Tuesday Oct 2016
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All these words
I don’t know
If they are the things
I feel
Or the things I think
I should feel
The pendulum sways
One day I’m convinced
I feel these things
So deeply that
Every ounce of my soul
Shattered completely
Feeling too much
Another day
Is like looking through
A hundred feet of glass
I can see the things
I should be feeling
But all that’s there
I a mirage
Cold and distant
Instead of feeling
What I should
I read the things
I’ve written
Then drift away
Into my memories
And I’m either
Torn and broken
Crushed by my emotions
Or I’m distant
And detached
Empty with apathy
If all just depends
On which way
The pendulum sways
16 Sunday Oct 2016
Posted in Poetry
