I understand the why, and God how I want to respect it… and I will. I know you will always be a part of me, and I know I will always be as part of you.

But I don’t know which scares me more…

The thought that when you come back I might not be in you’re heart and mind like I am now…

or that you’re going away hoping that when you come back I won’t be in you’re heart and mind the way I am now.