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You close your eyes
And sometimes
You’re lucky
And see
Beautiful things
like her
But that’s
The exception
And not the rule
Usually
You see demons
From your past
Bringing memories
That will never
Wipe away
19 Thursday Mar 2015
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You close your eyes
And sometimes
You’re lucky
And see
Beautiful things
like her
But that’s
The exception
And not the rule
Usually
You see demons
From your past
Bringing memories
That will never
Wipe away
17 Tuesday Mar 2015
17 Tuesday Mar 2015
Posted in Poetry
Screams
From the dark
And dusty room
Not mine this time
But I’m trapped
Can’t help
Screaming my name
Everyone’s name
Anyone’s name
That will listen
But I’m the only one
That hears the scream
And I can do nothing
Open my eyes
Breathe
The nightmares over
For now
But…
I can still hear
Her screams
16 Monday Mar 2015
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I am sorry
That I disappointed you
That I was not
The person you needed
Me to be
And I am sorry
That I left you
With more scars
Then you had
When we met
But most of all
I’m just sorry
And that sorry
Will never be enough
16 Monday Mar 2015
I remember
In the hospital
Those last few days
Her skin
Almost translucent
Like wax paper
I was terrified
My touch
Would hurt her
That her skin
Would pull away
But it didn’t
In some way
It was
The only thing left
She could feel
And so I sat
My hand
On her parchment skin
As her light
Slowly faded
I had disappointed
Her in life
But I would comfort
Her in death
14 Saturday Mar 2015
Posted in Poetry
She was strong
When what
She really wanted
Was to be delicate
Like a butterfly
And so that’s
What she let
The world see
A delicate butterfly
But the world
Had taught
Her lessons
She never wanted
To learn
It was no place
For delicate butterflies
And so
She would teach
The world
Her time
For delicate
Was over
She was now
A strong
Beautiful dragon
With a bloody mouth
Full of butterflies
Epilogue
Over the years I’ve had many dreams and nightmares about dragons eating butterflies. I have no idea what it means, but the imagery is always vivid. And when an amazing Twitter account that I follow changed her avi to a picture of a woman with a bloody butterfly in her mouth, it immediately caused a visceral reaction, and I was compelled to write this, with her permission.
Thank you @CrystalsChaotic for the inspiration and letting me write about it.
For those curious, here are the links to a couple of older butterfly related tweets that her avi reminded me of. Almost a year later they are still among my favorite.
12 Thursday Mar 2015
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It hasn’t happened often
But once in a while
I forget who I am
And let someone in
Just far enough
To break my heart
Each time I tell myself
I’ll never let it happen again
With each lesson learned
My armor strengthens
I hope it’s hard enough
To not let it happen again
11 Wednesday Mar 2015
03 Tuesday Mar 2015
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I only ever seemed
To feel alive those nights
We were together
And now that you’re gone
The days drag on
Just a little too long
And the nights feel so empty
Nothing too hold onto
But nearly forgotten memories
And I don’t know
Where I left my heart
Someplace I no longer want to go
02 Monday Mar 2015
Posted in Poetry