Maybe once
Long ago
There was
    something good
Buried inside of me
But it wasn’t alone
Too long it festered
With dark things
Now poisoned
Corrupted
Anything good
Has since faded

Some night
Long from now
The last star
Will have lost it’s light

The universe will
Forever more
Be dark
Cold and silent

And none of this
Will have mattered
And somehow
I find peace in that

You look for that thing
That thing that might save you
Reaching your hand out grasping
But you realize that saving you
Will destroy that thing

So I take my hand back
Saving her by letting myself decay
I refuse to contaminate her
Even if she’s the only thing
That might save my soul

I don’t know
If the world
Is pushing
Or if I am
Pulling away
But I can feel
Myself detaching
Darkness
Slipping in
Light
Fading out
And I’m not sure
If I want to fight it
Or embrace it

Too many
Cold and dark things
Crawling around
Inside of me
and I try…
I swear I try
To keep them in
to keep them
From seeping out
And I’m sorry
For the times I bled
My twisted insides
Out on you

Walking through
The ruins
Of who I might have been
Wondering
If there was a point
One place
One thing
I might have done differently
In my life could
That could have made
Everything alright
And I realize
There isn’t one
I was never
Not in ruins