We warned each other
How terrible our demons
And monsters were
We spoke of darkness
And all the reasons
The other should be afraid

But neither believed
The other could be so bad
We underestimated
Our demons and monsters
And so now here we are
Lost and alone
Broken

Just once
To wake up
Feeling your skin
Pressed against mine

To feel as though
That were normal
How everything
Is supposed to be

But every time
I awaken
Cold and alone
I remember

Your skin is not
Pressed against mine
We aren’t together
There is no
Supposed to be

Somewhere lost
Between heaven
And hell
We fell into
Some dark
Kind of love

Filled with bloody lust
The kind between
Hungry snakes
And angry dragons
Leaving behind
Jagged scars

Stuck between
A tide that pulled
And demons
That only knew
How to push
We lost our way

And now all that’s left
Between that heaven
And that hell
Are words that never
Should have been
Left unsaid

I can’t let you
Continue to hurt me

I can’t continue
To let myself hurt you

I can’t be this person
That keeps coming back

I can’t keep being
Weak when I
Need to be strong

I can’t stop you
From being who you are
But I can stop
Being who I’m not

I can’t seem to remember
When things got this way
Was it from the beginning
Or was there some
Sign I missed one day

I can’t
As much as I want to
I can’t