05 Thursday Nov 2015
I can’t let you
Continue to hurt me
I can’t continue
To let myself hurt you
I can’t be this person
That keeps coming back
I can’t keep being
Weak when I
Need to be strong
I can’t stop you
From being who you are
But I can stop
Being who I’m not
I can’t seem to remember
When things got this way
Was it from the beginning
Or was there some
Sign I missed one day
I can’t
As much as I want to
I can’t
05 Thursday Nov 2015
Posted in Poetry
04 Wednesday Nov 2015
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03 Tuesday Nov 2015
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03 Tuesday Nov 2015
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When you gaze
Up into the night
Do you think about
At all the stars
We used to watch
Together
Do you count them
And think of the times
Our fingers locked
All the caresses
We used to share
Or do you count
All the opportunities
That we’ve missed
All the nights
We’ve been apart
All the kisses
We never had
Or do you look
Up into the night
Without me
Slipping
Through your heart
And through your mind
Have the stars
Seemed to dim
Now that we’re apart
Or do the stars still shine
Just as bright
Now that we’re done
01 Sunday Nov 2015
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I was once
The fiery center
Of a star
I had no emotions
No memories
Just chaos
Now I’ve cooled
Coalesced
Become
Something that feels
Something that remembers
How I wish
I could go back
To un-become
And forget
What it is like
To feel
To remember
31 Saturday Oct 2015
When I say your name
I want my words
To wrap around your throat
Suffocate you
Make you want me
Make you need me
When I say your name
It’s usually because
I wish I could hear you
Saying my name
The way I say yours
With want
With need
When I say your name
It grumbles from my throat
Suffocating me
I say your name
Because I want you
Because I need you
26 Monday Oct 2015
Posted in Poetry
How do we always seem
To end up back here
In this same place
In this same fucked up way
Sometimes we run away
Other times we chase
Sometimes we build walls
Other times we tear them down
How many times will we
Drag emotional knives
Leaving broken jagged scars
Zippered across each other’s hearts
Yet here I seem to sit
Alone in this dark and dreary room
Wondering if you ever hear me
When I’m whispering your name
21 Wednesday Oct 2015
Posted in Poetry
How often do you think
About the sting
Of my hand
Across your face
About the warmth
Of my tongue
Sliding along your thighs
How often do you fantasize
About the ache
Of my teeth
On your skin
About the feeling
Of my lips
Caressing yours
How often do you dream
About the grip
Of my fingers
Around your throat
About the eruption
Of me
Inside of you
How often do you hunger
For my light
And for my dark
To wrap around you
Take you
Inside and out
To consume you completely
19 Monday Oct 2015
In between
Falling in love
And trying so hard
not to
In between
Releasing my demons
And trying so hard
to keep them leashed
In between
Iron resolve
And trying so hard
to not simply coming undone
It feels like I’m always stuck
Somewhere in between
Keeping myself together
And simply letting go
And lately
I’ve started to wonder
How long I can live
Tapped
In this fucking in between
Wounded Memories 