I don’t love easily
I love difficultly
It’s hard for me
To fall in love
And it’s hard
For others
To love me
And I would say
That I’m sorry
But I don’t know how
To love
Any other way
I Don’t Love Easily
19 Thursday Nov 2015
19 Thursday Nov 2015
14 Saturday Nov 2015
Posted Poetry
in07 Saturday Nov 2015
Posted Poetry
inAnd in my melancholy
I close my eyes
And wonder
How do you
Say goodbye
When you never tasted
Together
How do you
Say goodbye
When you don’t know
How to let go
Of something
You’ve never held
How do you
Say goodbye
When all I want
Is to feel your skin
Pressed against mine
How do you
Say goodbye
When all I want
Is to never let go
For you to never let go of me
07 Saturday Nov 2015
07 Saturday Nov 2015
The way my hands bleed
Every time I hold onto you
I swear I try to not let you go
But the blood
it’s just so fucking slippery
Any every time
you slip through
my bloody hands
I lose more of me
than I lose of you
I wish I remembered
how to cry
How to let go of my demons
And maybe then
just maybe then
I could finally learn
To hold you the way
You deserve to be held
And never fucking let go
of you again
07 Saturday Nov 2015
Posted Poetry
inSomewhere lost
Between heaven
And hell
We fell into
Some dark
Kind of love
Filled with bloody lust
The kind between
Hungry snakes
And angry dragons
Leaving behind
Jagged scars
Stuck between
A tide that pulled
And demons
That only knew
How to push
We lost our way
And now all that’s left
Between that heaven
And that hell
Are words that never
Should have been
Left unsaid
05 Thursday Nov 2015
I can’t let you
Continue to hurt me
I can’t continue
To let myself hurt you
I can’t be this person
That keeps coming back
I can’t keep being
Weak when I
Need to be strong
I can’t stop you
From being who you are
But I can stop
Being who I’m not
I can’t seem to remember
When things got this way
Was it from the beginning
Or was there some
Sign I missed one day
I can’t
As much as I want to
I can’t
03 Tuesday Nov 2015
Posted Poetry
in03 Tuesday Nov 2015
Posted Poetry
inWhen you gaze
Up into the night
Do you think about
At all the stars
We used to watch
Together
Do you count them
And think of the times
Our fingers locked
All the caresses
We used to share
Or do you count
All the opportunities
That we’ve missed
All the nights
We’ve been apart
All the kisses
We never had
Or do you look
Up into the night
Without me
Slipping
Through your heart
And through your mind
Have the stars
Seemed to dim
Now that we’re apart
Or do the stars still shine
Just as bright
Now that we’re done
31 Saturday Oct 2015
When I say your name
I want my words
To wrap around your throat
Suffocate you
Make you want me
Make you need me
When I say your name
It’s usually because
I wish I could hear you
Saying my name
The way I say yours
With want
With need
When I say your name
It grumbles from my throat
Suffocating me
I say your name
Because I want you
Because I need you